6. February 2011

I suppose this is a very silly and rather navel-gazel effort on my part because I don't expect (or particularly want) it to be read. It = this blog. However sometimes you I want to speak to no one in particular, just some listening ear. I am going to pretend that the horse on the left is that listening ear. He's got two of them, in fact, and they are quite large, so I think they will do.

It seems like every start of the semester is ridiculously frustrating for me: getting my course AND barn schedule straight, figuring out ways to Be Better. Getting back into the swing of things, socially, since breaks are usually pretty isolating for me (and social for "everyone else"?).

I end up eating a fair number of meals alone, and I don't mind, but I do look with a little bit of envy at the kids who choose to eat alone every day--the genuine introverts. I've always thought that's virtuous, to want to be alone.

Other things which my gut/family background/cultural background? tells me are virtuous:

• Not drinking soda/carbonated beverages
  • especially Mountain Dew, diet sodas, caffeinated sodas...
• Not going out/going to parties/going dancing
• Running or engaging in some kind of taxing physical exercise every day first thing upon waking up. (Crew team envy.)
• Doing math or physics (physics envy).
• Doing any hard science, actually.
• Believing in God and still being a spiritual, loving human being (note "still").
• Amish people
• Not using technology/not using it much
• Not having a Facebook
• Writing people by mail
• Not having a cell phone or only having an emergency-number-dialer phone
• Not drinking coffee
  • Drinking lots of tea
    • But not actually "lots" per se
• Not drinking cocoa except if it's snowing (then it's OK)
• Having all homework done at least 36 hours in advance
• Never engaging in base/physical pleasures

Contradictory Puritan freak.

Now, to write a thank-you letter to my cousin for the socks she sent me and then off to the barn to grapple with my little dude (at left).